better of that way!!!

February 7th, 2007 by mikris021113

well, he came over at our house yesterday and i was really having a good time with him, i mean even though we don’t anything in particular to do.i’m still enjoying his company because i really want to be  with him every second of my life from now till the end of time. CRAZY??? right but that’s all i could say and that’s all i could think of. i can’t believe that he too was imagining a romantic situation with me. all of us know that women are more imaginative about scenes where we’ll take good care of our sweethearts if they’re sick or have a romantic, chaotic but hearty experience with them. i even heard him ask me if i love him…

mahal mo ba ako?

i pretended that i was deaf for a time or so, why? because i want him to repeat it for me. it was so good! my hearts pumping rapidly than the usual beat. and all i could do was smile. and when he asked me again, i answered.. Syempre! oahhhh… how sweet. but things would never be the same again, we’ll always be like this until the right time comes. oh how i wish that time would skip into that very moment. the moment that i could be with him would be a picture perfect scenario when all that we could care about is none other that each other.

i’m to imaginative right? well, that’s what my hearts been trying to stop because it would only make expectations that sometimes cannot be meet. how SAD. . . .

SWITCH

February 6th, 2007 by mikris021113

you may now use Sun Cell… more affordable… mahirap man ang signal, atleast tipid!!!
hehehehehehe

our communication is at risk

February 4th, 2007 by mikris021113

what you ganna do when your life’s so messed up???

PrAy!.!.!.!.!

i just woke up freezing on my bed trying to find where’s my blanket. hahaha. i looked so funny inthe position and situation i’m into. hehehe. i mean, i’m really falling from where i’m sitting because i’m so lazy standing up and even for just opening my eyes. Oh f*ck! i spilled spots on the sheets! lalalalalalalalala…. huhuhuhu… nah! i have to clean up the mess because i have to go to Matil’s birthday celebration… it’s just simple… hehehehe… i’m excited to see them especially the bananas. ang mga saging n walang ginawa kundi tumawa at mag-iyakan. wazzzup for that???! i miss Krizzia Girl too, Jenix, Cheysser, michael, hero, kuya karl and many more. even the rebel high who’re always making excuses for them to cut classes and play  computer games. oh how i miss them all. even the times where all of the gang are in Intramuros because classes did not resume. hahahaha. we looked so happy.

yesterday, mama and my aunt brought me to the mall just to check up on some stuff. well, they actually bought things that we all need, necessities as they call them. and it’s really tiresome. huah… so i’ve got to go for now. see you some time.

WHAT MY NAME MEANS

February 1st, 2007 by mikris021113

There are 25 letters in your name.

What your first name means:

Swedish Female Bitter.
Spanish Female Bitter.
Shakespearean Female ‘Love’s
Labours Lost’ A lady attending on the Princess of France. ‘Twelfth
Night’, also called ‘What You Will’ Olivia’s waiting woman.
Norse Female Name not originally Norse but it appears in several sagas and is the name of King Harald Sigurdsson’s daughter.
Latin Female Commonly-used variant of Mary: Wished-for child; rebellion; bitter. Popular with both Spanish and non-Spanish cultures.
Italian Female Bitter.
Hebrew Female Variant of Mary: Wished-for child; rebellion; bitter.
German Female Bitter.
French Female Bitter.

Those 25 letters total to 103
There are 11 vowels and 14 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 4

The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.

The expression or destiny for #4:
Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horticulture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.

The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.

If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine.

Your Soul Urge number is: 4

A Soul Urge number of 4 means:
With the Soul Urge or Motivation number of 4 you are likely to strive for a stable life. You tend to follow a rather orderly pattern and systematic approach in your endeavors. You have an inner desire to serve others in a methodical and diligent manner. You want to be in solid, conventional, and well-regulated activities, and you are somewhat disturbed by innovation and erratic or sudden changes. Excellent at organizing, systematizing, and managing, you have a way of establishing order and maintaining it. You are responsible, reliable and in the final analysis, practical. Highly analytical, you can see your way through all sorts of situations and generally have a clear understanding of the issues. You are a very honest, sincere, and conscientious individual.

The negative side of the 4 is rigid, stubborn and somewhat narrow-minded. There is a tendency to hide feelings, or to really not be aware of real feelings. Avoid being too rigid and stubborn in your thinking, and try to always see the big picture rather than becoming to involved with the detail. Don’t be afraid to take a chance once in awhile.

Your Inner Dream number is: 9

An Inner Dream number of 9 means:
You dream of being creative, intellectual, and universal; the selfless humanitarian. You understand the needy and what to help them. You would love to be a person people count on for support and advice.

    tama nga naman, ako’y bitter and longed for a child. ewan q lang ha. pewo totoo yung mga nakalagay dyan kaya hanga aq. sana lang maimprove q ung mga negative traits and improve my positive traits. HEY! hey you!! you read that right! i’m sensitive and an adviser so be careful with how you treat me. i can make your life the biggest and most chaotic hell on earth! don’t challenge me because i’m telling you, i can!

yesterday, mam jhen and i had a serious talk, well its not really serious because its about the craziest ideas i had for this past few days! CRAZY! that reflects me. i’m crazy for everything that has been happening here. someones always hurting me and that really makes a big difference in the way i was before. i hate it when people make someone’s life so miserable! yeh! it’s you. you heard that right! i’m tired of you. tired of your excuses.

i’m now here… longing for reality, wandering, brainstorming…
     i swept…

behind the laughter is the barrel of tears…

February 1st, 2007 by mikris021113

how could this happen to me. i made my mistake, got no where to run, coz life goes on… cause i’m fading away, i’m sick of this life, i just say how could this happen to me.

    well, last night i admit we had a fight. well actually i got angry because of his decisions. he didn’t even informed about the plan where he would tell everyone that I’m not his mommy. so, what do you think of me? okey, this is how i feel right now, right this moment. i want to slap you in the face and put you in a sack and let you suffer and drown in a pond like a street cat thrown. but like the street cats, you have 9 lives and you have only 6 lives left. how dare you look straightly into my eyes while you lie?? how could you put your lips to mine while all you do is stab me in my back with  your stupid, obnoxious lies about things that you know would really hurt me. ok, so your confident that i would forgive you? well, this time and in this case, i’m sure that i wont easily give up. that’s the biggest decision that i could possibly do to make the changes. sorry  is not always  spoken by the mouth with sincerity, that’s the biggest lesson i had.  and to you my dear, please stop explaining, don’t  tell me  because it hurts.

     hey, this is an intermission about that emotional imbalance that I’ve been experiencing. let me tell you that my dog had a brown puppy. yippee! eureka! mwah mwah mwah!and my figures finally imprving. i’m fat!! hahahaha… my family’s doing well, my brother was now proud of the way i write things in english, my brother dondon gave me the privelage to have a BALLER. hahaha. and it’s blue, a sky blue as i look at it. hehehe. jumong is giving me the creeps, why? well its because i really crave for that show. hay, i hope its always Jumong that i could watch.

    till next time, till the next time we meet… we will….

congrats it’s a black baby…

January 30th, 2007 by mikris021113

come out, come out, wherever you are…
i’m trying to find our dog who’s preparing for labor, and guess what? i found her inside the laundry box.. i mean the place where our used clothes were taken. and from there, i saw a black puppy. her 1st baby pup is a black one with a tiny white spot in its forehead. nice ayt?? conratumalations ewww… you’ve done a great job taking care of yourself like that.

    hey, last night my tears poured down. why? i’ve heard a thing from his cousin and it did kinda make me SUFFER. thoughts run by my head and keeps on asking how? why? when? where? how could he possibly made that plan so vulnerable of hurting me. is it because, i hurt you many times before. i deserve this kind of misery. but please apologize in a very nice way. in a mannered way where i could spank you in the face or beat your but unto the ground and watch you beg for mercy… nyahahaha… har har har. i guess my BESHY, Lix was ayt about what i should do. idiot me. hmmmpf.

the lesson was never ever give your full trust to anyone ‘coz it will surely hurt you twice as much as you have expected.

    nyahaha… my brother read about my blog yesterday. even he was surprised about the word. because of that word my Daddy and i had a misunderstanding and had a bit of fight. Leonard was his name. and he is from ilocos Sur, Philippines. huh? he was asking asking, if we want to here him do that and we certainly an
swered, NO. as in NO. period. but that was really funny and still so immature and indecent. thanks to my sensitive thought. nyahahaha.

my parents. . .

    my father and I are in good condition. we are left with each other for i think  days now and developed a bonding. i’m starting to take over the house good. hahaha. it’s because my mother is sick, my father is sick too and even my brothers. me? it’s just a little injury for me, i’ll surely and having a hard time recovering from that. by th way, my sister is now returning home after 3 days of aparting from our family. i hope she made a very big change in herself. she better have or else, i’ll suffer again.

the climate…

    it was freezing out her in the RP, i guess the only missing part of this cold was the snow. even our oil froze. nyahaha. it’s like a refrigerator. happy for us, we’re not in th freezer like most of the people in the north.

harhar…

    our dog just had her 2nd pup and again it’s color black. where’s the brown one????

what kind of a word is that?

January 29th, 2007 by mikris021113

level up my pillows so i could breathe freely…

    i have a flu right now that’s why i’m having a hard time laying in my bed. i fell cold and alone.

    the nasty thing about today was the word "pagsalsal" i just don’t get it! why do people act so indecent about serious things. they really don’t mind if the one they’re talking to have sensitive minds.. they just go on and tell you things you don’t wanna here. i hate it when people force you to listen and talk about it. delicate things are talked by the mouth with respect. you must not force someone to involve in your personal pleasure to have leisure and enjoyment when all she feels is embarrassment and disrespect!!it;s against our rights. huh! the hell with you!!!! you must not treat a girl with that kind of manner. you must have lessons from my daddy!!!! hmmmpf!!!!

war between our hearts and minds

January 26th, 2007 by mikris021113

well, i guess it’s hard for someone to make decisions about what must come first. the heart or the mind?

i’m a type of person where the heart always comes first! and it’s really hard for me to let my mind decide about things in my life coz i’ll definitely regret it. sorry for the person i’m trying to stab out here but you’re making me sick! you’re always there to tell me what must and what should i do. well, i’m tired of it huh! it’s like wearing a pajama when u nid to go to school! it’s not appropriate! i hate that! it’s not his fault, it’s my fault! i’m better with him and i wanna stay like that forever. why do we always end up in fights!?? where the winner is always unknown and the result is always illegal… i’m sick of it! heart must come first coz that’s what i enjoy!

SOT!!! Savior on Text!

January 25th, 2007 by mikris021113

i met someone last night and it’s all because of my cellphone. the crazy thing about this was, it was a mistake. WRONG SENT poh! hay…

am i lucky or what? huh? he looks good on his pic eh. hehehe but of course, my daddy would always be the prettiest man in my life. my goodness. what a reaction. we talked about everything until we have to both bid goodbye. funny  right? it was like a one night stand! hehehe… that’s not bad right? it’s not two timing. hehehe. I’m not like someone i knew.. hehehe… (tamaan ka katabi ko!! hehehe). then why did i call him my SAVIOR??? hehehe… well, i can’t sleep ‘coz i was afraid to fall asleep. he comforted me by his jokes and stories. it was really fun though i really don’t know him. i hope he WON’T text me anymore. (totoo un noh!!) even though I’m a txt addict, i don’t want myself to be involved with someone that I’m starting to like. it’s not appropriate especially when you’re engaged with someone that makes everything light for you. guess, i just miss you daddy and i need you for companion.

before anything else, my dad, my father and i was now at ease. i felt better. thank God!

gently pull down my undies…

January 23rd, 2007 by mikris021113

… so i could finally reveal myself…
……..let me express the emotions that’s been wanting to burst…

set ME free!

the relationship between my father is making me sick! it’s a burden having that thick barricade between us. we don’t talk, we don’t laugh we even can’t look in each others eyes. it’s all my fault. i didn’t took his rules seriously that’s why I’m now facing the consequences i must have. i really wanted to cry. but to whom???

I’m having a great time with my siblings when they’re around that’s why i don’t want to be left alone out here or anywhere. i don’t feel comfort, in this place. i hope they’ll be here… sooner….

i hate myself, I’m playing around.
is this the effect of my tragedy?

iyelle, making me feel that she’s throwing our friendship away, the harassed truth!, and the rules I’ve broken?

I’m cold…

no one can give me warmth in my heart, i wish there is…

Daddy, hope you’re doing fine, i guess I’m just feeling empty without you here. i miss you. I’ve been longing for you to be here.

Siblings, please come home with me in your arms again.