Archive for February, 2007

happy birthday to me!!!!

Tuesday, February 13th, 2007

hehehehe…. i woke up late and i’m to lazy to get up… but as usual, i must because i must prepare our breakfast especially for my brother who’ll soon depart from home. well, i’ll surely miss him because he’s my partner. partner in staying up so late just to finish his projects, floor plans, while me? hahaha… actually i’m watching movies or writing journals to make me sleepy.

okay, the best part of this day was especially the DAY! get it? it’s 13th of February and it’s our tenth month. youy know who, ayt???

there’s no celebration, as usual, but why do you need to have celebrations when all you really need is his/her company, ayt? my mother knew about this special day, of course she does… that’s  why she told me to ask him for company and she’ll give us a treat. all of you knew the situation i’m in to. so, i’m so happy that things turned out so good, so far. you’ll never know what would still happen……

mOvEr!

Monday, February 12th, 2007

well the past few days was awesome. you know why? because my daddy was here for plenty  of times. uhm, all i could say is that i’m doing fine. doing all so right! hehehehe… we stayed up late last saturday and today he’s here with me. anbd i hope to have a good day with him right now. my sister’s going to sing at our school. so fantastic!!!!

better of that way!!!

Wednesday, February 7th, 2007

well, he came over at our house yesterday and i was really having a good time with him, i mean even though we don’t anything in particular to do.i’m still enjoying his company because i really want to be  with him every second of my life from now till the end of time. CRAZY??? right but that’s all i could say and that’s all i could think of. i can’t believe that he too was imagining a romantic situation with me. all of us know that women are more imaginative about scenes where we’ll take good care of our sweethearts if they’re sick or have a romantic, chaotic but hearty experience with them. i even heard him ask me if i love him…

mahal mo ba ako?

i pretended that i was deaf for a time or so, why? because i want him to repeat it for me. it was so good! my hearts pumping rapidly than the usual beat. and all i could do was smile. and when he asked me again, i answered.. Syempre! oahhhh… how sweet. but things would never be the same again, we’ll always be like this until the right time comes. oh how i wish that time would skip into that very moment. the moment that i could be with him would be a picture perfect scenario when all that we could care about is none other that each other.

i’m to imaginative right? well, that’s what my hearts been trying to stop because it would only make expectations that sometimes cannot be meet. how SAD. . . .

SWITCH

Tuesday, February 6th, 2007

you may now use Sun Cell… more affordable… mahirap man ang signal, atleast tipid!!!
hehehehehehe

our communication is at risk

Sunday, February 4th, 2007

what you ganna do when your life’s so messed up???

PrAy!.!.!.!.!

i just woke up freezing on my bed trying to find where’s my blanket. hahaha. i looked so funny inthe position and situation i’m into. hehehe. i mean, i’m really falling from where i’m sitting because i’m so lazy standing up and even for just opening my eyes. Oh f*ck! i spilled spots on the sheets! lalalalalalalalala…. huhuhuhu… nah! i have to clean up the mess because i have to go to Matil’s birthday celebration… it’s just simple… hehehehe… i’m excited to see them especially the bananas. ang mga saging n walang ginawa kundi tumawa at mag-iyakan. wazzzup for that???! i miss Krizzia Girl too, Jenix, Cheysser, michael, hero, kuya karl and many more. even the rebel high who’re always making excuses for them to cut classes and play  computer games. oh how i miss them all. even the times where all of the gang are in Intramuros because classes did not resume. hahahaha. we looked so happy.

yesterday, mama and my aunt brought me to the mall just to check up on some stuff. well, they actually bought things that we all need, necessities as they call them. and it’s really tiresome. huah… so i’ve got to go for now. see you some time.

WHAT MY NAME MEANS

Thursday, February 1st, 2007

There are 25 letters in your name.

What your first name means:

Swedish Female Bitter.
Spanish Female Bitter.
Shakespearean Female ‘Love’s
Labours Lost’ A lady attending on the Princess of France. ‘Twelfth
Night’, also called ‘What You Will’ Olivia’s waiting woman.
Norse Female Name not originally Norse but it appears in several sagas and is the name of King Harald Sigurdsson’s daughter.
Latin Female Commonly-used variant of Mary: Wished-for child; rebellion; bitter. Popular with both Spanish and non-Spanish cultures.
Italian Female Bitter.
Hebrew Female Variant of Mary: Wished-for child; rebellion; bitter.
German Female Bitter.
French Female Bitter.

Those 25 letters total to 103
There are 11 vowels and 14 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 4

The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.

The expression or destiny for #4:
Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horticulture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.

The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.

If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine.

Your Soul Urge number is: 4

A Soul Urge number of 4 means:
With the Soul Urge or Motivation number of 4 you are likely to strive for a stable life. You tend to follow a rather orderly pattern and systematic approach in your endeavors. You have an inner desire to serve others in a methodical and diligent manner. You want to be in solid, conventional, and well-regulated activities, and you are somewhat disturbed by innovation and erratic or sudden changes. Excellent at organizing, systematizing, and managing, you have a way of establishing order and maintaining it. You are responsible, reliable and in the final analysis, practical. Highly analytical, you can see your way through all sorts of situations and generally have a clear understanding of the issues. You are a very honest, sincere, and conscientious individual.

The negative side of the 4 is rigid, stubborn and somewhat narrow-minded. There is a tendency to hide feelings, or to really not be aware of real feelings. Avoid being too rigid and stubborn in your thinking, and try to always see the big picture rather than becoming to involved with the detail. Don’t be afraid to take a chance once in awhile.

Your Inner Dream number is: 9

An Inner Dream number of 9 means:
You dream of being creative, intellectual, and universal; the selfless humanitarian. You understand the needy and what to help them. You would love to be a person people count on for support and advice.

    tama nga naman, ako’y bitter and longed for a child. ewan q lang ha. pewo totoo yung mga nakalagay dyan kaya hanga aq. sana lang maimprove q ung mga negative traits and improve my positive traits. HEY! hey you!! you read that right! i’m sensitive and an adviser so be careful with how you treat me. i can make your life the biggest and most chaotic hell on earth! don’t challenge me because i’m telling you, i can!

yesterday, mam jhen and i had a serious talk, well its not really serious because its about the craziest ideas i had for this past few days! CRAZY! that reflects me. i’m crazy for everything that has been happening here. someones always hurting me and that really makes a big difference in the way i was before. i hate it when people make someone’s life so miserable! yeh! it’s you. you heard that right! i’m tired of you. tired of your excuses.

i’m now here… longing for reality, wandering, brainstorming…
     i swept…

behind the laughter is the barrel of tears…

Thursday, February 1st, 2007

how could this happen to me. i made my mistake, got no where to run, coz life goes on… cause i’m fading away, i’m sick of this life, i just say how could this happen to me.

    well, last night i admit we had a fight. well actually i got angry because of his decisions. he didn’t even informed about the plan where he would tell everyone that I’m not his mommy. so, what do you think of me? okey, this is how i feel right now, right this moment. i want to slap you in the face and put you in a sack and let you suffer and drown in a pond like a street cat thrown. but like the street cats, you have 9 lives and you have only 6 lives left. how dare you look straightly into my eyes while you lie?? how could you put your lips to mine while all you do is stab me in my back with  your stupid, obnoxious lies about things that you know would really hurt me. ok, so your confident that i would forgive you? well, this time and in this case, i’m sure that i wont easily give up. that’s the biggest decision that i could possibly do to make the changes. sorry  is not always  spoken by the mouth with sincerity, that’s the biggest lesson i had.  and to you my dear, please stop explaining, don’t  tell me  because it hurts.

     hey, this is an intermission about that emotional imbalance that I’ve been experiencing. let me tell you that my dog had a brown puppy. yippee! eureka! mwah mwah mwah!and my figures finally imprving. i’m fat!! hahahaha… my family’s doing well, my brother was now proud of the way i write things in english, my brother dondon gave me the privelage to have a BALLER. hahaha. and it’s blue, a sky blue as i look at it. hehehe. jumong is giving me the creeps, why? well its because i really crave for that show. hay, i hope its always Jumong that i could watch.

    till next time, till the next time we meet… we will….